2014년 10월 27일 월요일

Do you mask?

Do you mask?

"Masks that sharply goes down into your skin can only confess.However, when we encounter the important moment, we should put down our persona and be person."

It was a last week on Friday night. I was walking on the street of Itaewoon, international district here in Seoul. While walking on the street, something caught my attention;
Masks


Halloween masks on the street of Itaewoon, Seoul


Just couple of days ago, I also read an article from the French newspaper; Le Figaro. It was about a spectator with the Islamic burka. The spectator was asked to be out of the theater during the Opera, since the French law stipulates that no one should cover their face in the public. (Click here to see more contents about the news article.)




Le Figaro: One spectator with her mask was asked to be out of the Opera Bastille.

On the other hand, I see every day on the street in front of Ewha Womans Universitybunches of "cosmetic masks".




Or whatever, the masks can be something beautiful Italian Venice style what we see during the masquerade of The Phantom of Opera , hero's last resort in The Spiderman, or what you saw in the Ocean 11.









Yes I just scribbled down senseless how those masks are communicated in our society. We wear masks in our daily life for certain reasons. We wear masks; to hide our identity, to amuse, to frighten, to show religious belief, to be seen as more beautiful, etc. 

The society is exhorting us to wear proper masks for the appropriate moments. People say that true heart and feeling should be respected, but now we are more accustomed to hide our selves.


The reason that the "Mona Lisa" by the "Leonardo da Vinci" is still loved by people is she shows inexplicable expression. The lyrics of the "Poker Face" by Lady Gaga depicts one mysterious girl's sexual aspect with the lyrics "Can't read my, he can't read my poker face." Those all explain the face or another mask of human being. 



Mona Lisa, Leonardo da Vinci, Louvre Museum


Recent days, as the season makes you fall in the feeling of "isolation" and "facing to your own selves" I am keep facing this question; Masks of human being. We act different to different people in different situation, should we accept this as a natural human being or is it another trick to hide the true sincere aspect of oneself?


This has been the consistent question of human history. Yukio Mishima, Japanese writer born in 1925, he found his identity as a gay in his early age. For the reason that he was born in the era that the homosexuality cannot be commonly accepted, he later finishes his life by taking a suicide. In his autobiographic novel, "Confessions of a Mask(1949)" he says, 



Yukio Mishima(Japan), 1925-1970


"They could be their natural selves, whereas I was to play a part, a fact that would require considerable understanding and study. So it was not my maturity but my sense of uneasiness, my uncertainty that was forcing me to gain control over my consciousness. Because such consciousness was simply a steppingstone to aberration and my present thinking was nothing but uncertain and haphazard guesswork.” 


Regarding Yukio's book, Mikyung Jeong, said that "There is nothing called true confession. No one can show their own true face. Rather a mask which deeply goes down into your skin, can confess."


Paul Tournier(1898-1986) is an innovator in the part of pastoral counseling, which emphasizes on the spiritual and psychological treatment of the doctor. In his book, "The meaning of the person" he acknowledges that "mask" itself is inevitable in every occasions. Especially, if the occasion has more meaning, people are more asked to their masks. It is like people who are angry during the wedding ceremony are criticized to people who are smiling. However Paul says that when the most pivotal moment comes, people should be themselves in front of the truth.



Paul Tournier: La Personne et La Personne 



As fall comes, I have more time to think about myself and masks that I have. I am also surprised by myself who become different with the people I am with and the environment that I am included in. In every situation, I think over and over again how the other 2nd and 3rd party would respond about it, in the view point of themselves which leads into the maze and unintentional happenings. I also hope that I can put down my mask when I face to my self in the true moment .


Put down your mask.




We put down our masks when we face to the true moment









No matter what we do
No matter what we say
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes


And everywhere we go
The sun will always shine
But tomorrow we might awake on the other side

'Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way



Christina Aguilera - Beautiful


2014년 9월 7일 일요일

Lost Stars. Shall we begin again?

<Movie Review> BEGIN AGAIN





I came back to my hometown Busan for couple of days to spend Korea's national holiday, Chuseok with my family. 

Today I took a walk. The wind was different. I could feel that the wind has changed in just couple of days. It was colder than the last time when I faced. The wind touched my face in a bold way.

I love the smell of Busan. Without doubt, it is starkly different from the smell of Seoul. Whenever I take a step on the land, I can feel that It is salty, sticky. But the smell always reminds me of my youth, my past and the lost heart.

The smell of the memory is always worth to call upon again. It gives you bittersweet smile

I watched a movie, "Begin Again" at a movie theater. I heard so many times that the music of the movie moves the watchers. Truly it was, it just made me stunned, speak-less.  I say that it will be remained as one of the best movies for me.

 The movie was directed by John Carney, Irish movie director, who got fame for his first debut Indie film, "Once" with the hit song, "Falling Slowly."

Gretta (Keira Knightley) and her boy friend Dave (Adam Levine) are five-year old couples. The movie shows how Gretta proceeds her music processing with the help from Dan () and overcoming her past love Dave who gave music inspiration to her. 

The best song of the movie is, "Lost Stars." which expresses the confusing feeling of Gretta, composed for Dave. The deer chases lion though it knows it can be threatening and sad that the lion would not love her. When the deer is gone with tears knowing that the lion would not love her anymore. When the deer leaves the lion,  the lion chases the deer again. 

It asks who we are. It is all specked with tears and memory. They feel that they are just one small part of the world shrouded by darkness. We are in tears of the memory, who we are. 

Are we lost in our world?









Please, don't see
Just a boy caught up in dreams
And fantasies
Please, see me
Reaching out for someone
I can't see
Take my hand
Let's see where we wake up tomorrow
Best laid plans
Sometimes are just a one night stand
I'll be damned
Cupid's demanding back it's arrow
So let's get drunk on our tears
And God, tell us the reason
Youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season
And the lambs are on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars
Trying to light up the dark




Who are we?
Just a speck of dust
Within the galaxy?
Woe, is me
If we're not careful
Turns into reality
But don't you dare
Let our best memories bring you sorrow
Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer
Turn the page
Maybe we'll find a brand new ending
Where we're dancing in our tears
And God, tell us the reason
Youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season
And the lambs are on the run
We're searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars
Trying to light up the dark
I thought I saw you out there crying
I thought I heard you call my name
I thought I heard you out there crying
But just the same
And God, give us the reason
Youth is wasted on the young


It's hunting season
And this lamb is on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars
Trying to light up the dark



Let's get drunk in our tears. 

Are we all lost stars?


2014년 9월 5일 금요일

Paulo Coelho- Eleven

<Book Review> Paulo Coelho- Eleven

Paulo-Coelho


Mariah, brazilian prostitue working in Switzerland she wants to find herself.

She says, 

"“When I had nothing to lose, I had everything. When I stopped being who I am, I found myself.” 



2014년 8월 23일 토요일

Life is Short. Kiss Slowly, Laugh Crazily.

Mamma Mia- The Winner Takes It All


Broadwayworld.com - Picture


It has been two months that I participated in the musical, Mamma Mia.
The performance day has just come around the corner. The musical will be performed in October 3rd and 4th at Ewha Womans University Performance hall, so it would be a great pleasure to present in front of my friends since musical has been on my bucket list of my University years.  

I am playing the role, Donna, 50 year old women. She was a singer in her past with bright and strong soul.  But now she is sick and tired of her boring daily life, fighting every day with banking workers for her financial problem . The musical starts from her daughter Sophie's idea to find her father. Sophie has her wedding soon but she does not know who her father is. Then she found from Donna's diary that there are three men who are presumed to be her father. The musical starts from sending letters to three men.

In the end, the Musical ends that three of Donna's past lovers both agreed to be Sophie's father and Donna's  first true love Sam propose to her and they get married.
All of the songs in the musical are so touchy and moves listeners heart. 

While singing the songs, I deeply get touched by the depth of the lyrics. Especially, my favorite song is "The Winner Takes It All" which expresses the feeling of Donna by looking back her past times. Of course, it is one of the most difficult songs in the musical, but the lyrics of the song makes listeners to look back on the life.

The lyrics goes; She was hurt by her lovers and her times that she feels powerless that there is nothing she can do in her life.  She wants to ignore the situation but still it comes as a shadow of her memory. She needs to accept the fact that her lovers left her and she should be more strong.  Since she doesn't want to get hurt, she builds her own fence and pretends but she finds out that she was protecting herself not to be hurt.




I don't wanna talk
About things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser's standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny

I don't wanna talk

If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see

The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all

The Musical Mamma Mia was written by British Playwright, Catherine Johnson, based on the songs of ABBA, Swedish group. The title of the musical, Mamma Mia has been named after the ABBA's 1975 chart topper, "Mamma Mia."
ABBA is a Swedish pop group formed in 1972 in Stockholm. Agnetha FältskogBjörn UlvaeusBenny Andersson, and Anni-Frid Lyngstad were the member of the groups. The name, ABBA has named after the first character of the each members, A-B-B-A. ABBA was the first non-English speaking group who won gained success in English speaking countries such as U.K, Ireland, U.S.A. etc.



Because of the reason that four members were in relationship each other, the lyrics of the songs composed by them are ingrained with their true heart. The members, Fältskog and Ulvaeus loved each other and Lyngstad and Andersson loved and both of two couples got married but they divorced later. For these reasons, even though ABBA was in its own peak of the popularity in 1981, the group was disbanded in 1982 when both of relationship of two couples were not good. 

As I participate in the musical, I can deeply understand the feeling of Donna, who was hurt by her three lovers of the past but still lives day by day for her daughter and her life itself. Her life could have been sustained thanks to the help of her best friends, Rosie and Tanya who are always willing to be next to her.

Life comes with times. Love is forgotten by another love and it becomes the beautiful memory of the times. Rather than pretending to be strong, accepting the emotion of ones true heart is more easier and frank way to oneself to overcome the sorrow. The musical Mamma Mia, depicts the truth of the life in this context. 

The winner takes it all, the loser has to stand stall.
However, we are the fate owner of our life which decides to be winner and the loser.



2014년 7월 5일 토요일

First Kiss of Seoul.

First Kiss of Seoul.




I remember. It was back one year ago. The wind was crispy, the green was everywhere around the corner of Paris. Pink color of cloud was up of my head. I tend to whistle "La vie en rose" every day, even though I was so bad at making tunes.

Ils Saint Louis- Paris, France
I was sitting with him on the river of the ile Saint-Louis, one small island on the Seine river, Paris. It was the moment out of expectation. We drank wine and talked for hours. We talked about our favorite music, art, life, travel, every single topic what just came out of the mouth. I was sincere at that time, young and bright girl, and my eyes were only telling the truth. My heart was pumping with full of unknown. 

I remember the date exactly since I write diary every day. 
The day was June, 30th of 2013. 

The summer came back again.

The same fresh air was touching my nose. Yesterday I just finished moving out of my studio here in Seoul, South Korea. The studio where I lived was one of the most expensive ones in Seoul, according to the estate-agent. It had big window where I could look down all Shinchon area, two-floor, and I could feel the sunlight everyday whenever I woke up. I enjoyed past four months of living in there.

However, I decided to move out of the studio and move to the cheapest place in Seoul. The former house was too big luggage for me. I paid almost one-third of my monthly incoming for the studio and I realized that my next big travel journey for South America is not that far away but my saving are not enough.




seoulmania.tistory.com Seoul, Gwanghwamoon Square

The breeze of fresh Summer has come back again to my life, without noticing that time is going with its own generosity. I recently realized that this is my first time in Seoul in my whole life. I have never spent my summer in Seoul and in the sense 2014 Summer in Seoul is meaningful too me.

I was born and raised in Busan, Southern beach city of Korea spending 15 years of Summer there. I spent my high school in Gimhae, one hour far from Busan, to go to my foreign language boarding school that I spent three years of Summer there. Then I entered my current University here in Seoul.

I spent my 2011 in Beijing, to take summer course in  Beijing University in China. I spent my 2012 in Jeju Island, to work for media team of the IUCN for the international conference. I spent my 2013 in Paris, to say exactly almost here and there of Europe since I was always travelling.

Finally, I spend my summer, here in Seoul, one of the most dynamic cities in the world.
I decided to participate in the Musical, Mamma Mia, organized by the French Faculty of my University since I decided that it might be a rare chance for me after my graduation. Considering that French Embassy and several official french organizations are supporting for this Musical, I feel a great responsibility.



First Kiss.
I would play a role, Donna, 50 year old woman who has a daughter called Sophie. By practicing songs of Donna, I could feel that in some sense I am a little like to her character. She wants to be strong, independent, but in the sense she was always missing her true heart. She now became old woman, but she still misses her old love who left to France to marry with his fiancee there.

Summer always brings a lot of stories to our life. It is one of the most beautiful season of the year for its own brightness and energy. It brings with the unexpected story.

This summer is my First Kiss of Seoul.
I am excited of expecting for unexpected.



2014년 5월 25일 일요일

Hey, What are you hesitating?

Hey, What are you hesitating?







Yes I am.
I always hesistate for the moments that I missed.


Live your life, Live this moment, Live as who you are.
No one can live your life instead of you, Yourself.

Do your best in your study and job.
Play Hard as much as you can.
Meet A Lot of people who would show you more broad world.
Moderate your alcohol consumption.
Hang out with people who would bring energy to you.
Smile always.
Be Happy about who you are but improve yourself.
Deeply consider what your heart says to you.
Listen to your voice.
Take your time, if things do not go well.


Take your time.
Listen to your inner voice.
Smile.

Be Who You Are.


No one can live your life instead of You, yourself.

2014년 5월 21일 수요일

Dialogue with the eco-friendly documentary director, Hwang-Yoon.

"Love, It has been the source of my passion."

-Dialogue the environment documentary director, Hwang-Yoon.-



Hwang Yoon Documentary Director,
during her dialogue with Ewha students

Her passion toward the nature was special than anyone else. She has been consistently speaking about our society's environmental issues through her past documentary works. Sometimes, she was lonely. Sometimes, she asked herself why she was keep filming documentary with that much small budget. 


In her first documentary, She was a girl who got interested into the animal at the zoo. In her second documentary, she had become a grownup women who got serious about social phenomenon, Road Kill. Now, she is one family's mother who has an adorable baby.  Her concern toward her baby's meal plan led to our society's meat-oriented eating style.

Her documentaries have been with her life, her family and herself. 


At Ewha Womans University, Posco Hall, on 22th May, 2014, there was a dialogue between the director Hwang-Yoon and the students of the documentary film-making courses. It was exclusively open to the students of the course.

Hwang Yoon, she is a well-renowned environment documentary director in Korea. Recently, she got the grand-prize for her movie, "An omnivorous family's dilemma(2014)" at the 11th Seoul Environment Documentary Festival, held from 11th May to 18th May, for the Korea Documentary Competition Division. For her notable works, she got a prize at the Yamagata Documentary Festival, one of the three biggest international documentary film festivals in the world. 


She said, "At first, I worked for the telecommunication company after university diploma. I worked  one year but I felt something is lacked in my life. I felt my energy was almost burned out out of boredom."


She continued, "I accidentally went to the movie workshop of the magazine, CINE 21, and since then I started to get interested into the movie film-making."


Her first work as a non-professional director was dealing with the hardship of the movie staffs in the worst situation, "The story of that winter." 


For her second piece, she filmed "Good-Bye(2006)", which deals with the life story of the animals at Zoo.


She told students how she came out with the documentary topics. 

She went to the Zoo in one day of April, without thinking something serious. When she went to the Seoul Zoo, she stopped her step and found out that polar bear was nodding its head. People were acclaiming around the zoo but she felt something went wrong.

"When I saw the eyes of those polar bears, I could feel the sadness from the bear. Ironically, people were cheering for the bear."




Hwang Yoon's Two Documentary works,
On The Road One Day(2006) and Goodbye (2006)



However, the process of filming the movie was not easy. The zoo asked her to pay for the money to film, and also to specify why she want to shoot a film. When she was sitting on the bench, and she sighed, she just felt, "I would just look at the tiger once, and go back."


Luckily, she met the trainer of the tiger. Then, the trainer introduced her to the little baby Krane. Krane became the main story of her film, "Good-Bye."  


"That was the destiny, I am still not sure what might have happened if I did not meet him coincidentally at that time." 


She emphasized that everyone should have their own fingerprint on their own piece. 


"Whenever I shoot a film, whether my movie has my own fingerprint is the main concern of every piece. I hope that your movie (as a future documentary director) can have your own fingerprint on your work."





Roadkill- animals who are dying accidentally on the road.


Her next step was to film about Road Kill, animals who are dying on the road accidentally.  She shoot a film about Choi Tae Hyung, Korea's first scholar who systematically did research about Road-Killing.



It led her to think what the road means to animals, which led her to approach the documentary in the different ways, which made her to put caption from the aspect of the animals.


"I do not say that we should not pursue industry development, what I emphasize is that we need to minimize the development."



An Omnivorous Family's Dilemma

After her 2nd documentary about Road-Killing, she got married with the veterinarian that she got to know through her documentary production, and she gave birth to a baby. "I was just trying to concentrate on taking care of baby."


Later, Foot and Mouth Disease swept over the country.

One day, she got a call from her friend and she persuaded her that Ms. Hwang is the only one  who can shoot the film about pigs who are being discarded. This led her to film her third piece, "An Omnivorous Family's Dilemma," which recently got the grand prize. 

At the end of the discourse, there was time to ask questions and hear answers back from director Ms.Hwang.


"Love."


To the question, what led her to shoot films with passion, she picked "love" as the main power sources. It has been her power, the source of her passion toward documentary.


"Had it not been for the love toward animals, it might have been impossible to film the documentary in this consistent way. Love. That has been my source."


It was such a meaningful time to look into one women documentary director's life and her consistent passion toward the world.  Through today's discourse, I once again confirmed that without love toward your job, we cannot continue.


What is your love?



If you are interested more into her life story and her recent works, please check her blog.

http://blog.naver.com/oneday2008 (Hwang Yoon Director's Blog)
->It is written in Korean but if you are interested into getting more know about her,